I wrote this original post in July of this year. I am not sure why I didn't totally finish it, but I'm going to go ahead and post it. I'm still living in the rub, but enjoying the peace that only God brings. <3
Often times people are asked are you an Armenian or a Calvinist? I am neither. I am a Biblicist. I believe both God's sovereignty and man's human responsibility are taught in scripture. Some consider this taking the position as a easy road. However, I would disagree.
Living in the rub of a tension is not an easy thing. However, it is comforting to know that the God of the Bible is not one who I can figure out. Romans 11:33-36 are some of my favorite verses in explaining this. If I could figure out God, then He really wouldn't be that great would HE?
So I live in that rub.
We all have a rub we live in. As Christians we are fleshly creatures that have the Holy Spirit living in us.
My husband has a job where he travels for long periods at a time. Most of his trips are scheduled but there are also "pop-up" trips where something will come up out of the blue. They are hard to predict. He is currently on a trip that was supposed to be two weeks long. We are on day 18 with no end in sight yet. It seems even more trying because he only arrived home on May 25th from a 70+ day trip and now he's gone again.
I know that we are apart not by accident or even because of his employer, but because God is sovereign and has us both where He wants us. And yet, God brought us together in marriage so I miss him desperately. The rub of us being apart when wanting to be together and trusting the Lord in His sovereignty can be a stress for me at times.
And yet when I woke up this morning, and know that I have a busy week, vehicle issues, physical work to be done around our home, His mercies are new every morning. I am still saved by grace, I have the Holy Spirit who lives in me and is working to produce in me love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control.
